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November illness

In this moment of life I am feeling so damn depressed. Is it because I stayed too positive and negative stuffs will attack me? I seriously had no idea. It seems like life is such a depressing thing in this moment. I can't smile happily. I can't face things fearlessly. I am so scared. So worried but I am not sure who I should talk to. Talking the same old thing again and again to the person, he or she might feel annoyed. But I really need someone to accompany and talk to. Feeling so useless why can't I stay positive. Why am I feeling so scared. Trauma cause of bad stuffs coming to me continuously? Seriously. I met an accident when I was driving but it was just some minor one. It was then settled. And yet, I had been consulting doctors for four times in this month. Seriously scary. Each time different problem. First time my irregular growing of wisdom teeth. Secondly, my eye problem. Third, falling sick. Lastly, tooth canal infection. I went through so much. At first I faced these problems positively, but until the last fucking problem I can't stand anymore. Why the hell choosing me for these rubbish?!! And it just doesn't stop you know? I am very tired. Please stop all these. Feeling so damn worried on my tooth.. I am just so scared. I have no more idea on how to get it recover. I had finished the last dose of medicine but it still not yet fully recover. Although I had finished my presentation today but I am seriously not myself for today. I cant smile as happy I was. Telling people they say that I am over worried. Is this the character of perfectionist? Wants everything to be perfect? Well, I am tired of problems coming continuously. I had enough.. I need some break from the negatives please!
November just hate me without any reason.

Sorry, I was being emotional tonight. I just need to express my feelings. 

Coffee Stain by Joseph

Saying Hello to my dear readers! *waves*  

I am having busy moments as it is coming towards the year end which is my busiest time of the year. As you all know, I am always being busy during the year end. Why? Because I am busy for my studies and preparation for my recital as well. What about you all? I hope you are enjoying your life as usual. Me? I am actually enjoying my life much more these days. I learnt that I must appreciate things around. "Don't take things for granted."  

Instead of enjoying my life, I am currently busy with my assignments. I have 2 assignments to pass up next week. It seems like I should be crazy over these assignments right? Yup. I am struggling so I went out with two of my buddies, Wai Hong and Cherub yesterday for some discussion at Coffee Stain in Publika, Solaris Dutamas. We are more or less having fun while discussing our assignments. I seriously like the ambience there although it is not a perfect spot for assignments. 

Signature coffee which the cubes are coffee
and you will need to pour the
milk into the glass and it will turn into a coffee.
*Forget the name*
Costs around RM 15

My "Hot Chocolate"I loved it.
Costs around RM 10

3D art Chocolate
It is just a plain cup of hot chocolate with a 3D art on it.
To be honest it is too cute that I will not willing to drink it.
Costs around RM 15.

Le buddies! :)

Just a simple and short post. Hope you will like it. :)

Sorry for my readers who waited for my new post and request for a new post.

Thanks for reading! 

-Stay tuned-

New Beginning

It is time to let it go. I had grown up and I want to be more matured. Want to stop all the "emo" stuffs. Everything happened few years back and I just cannot let it go until today. Stressful, unhappy, rude, stubborn, naive, etc gotten into my life from that day itself (back to those days in high school).  These stuffs just stick to me for so long and I just realize it today. I used to blame people and my life for being so lousy and troublesome to me. I did had some self-reflection sometimes when something happened but just because of pride I really do not know how to face people with it. Well, I do lower down my pride to say a simple sorry to that person but I did it reluctantly. To me, saying sorry was just for making that person to not angry at me. No, it proves me wrong. Saying sorry doesn't mean that you are losing any pride. Saying sorry is just to make you to get things over and refresh your life. Forget about the hate and start to forgive. This will lead you to have a better life. No point of hating people as life is just too short to hate people. Last time, I used to domineer people to agree with my thoughts as I felt that it was right. To be honest, there is nothing right or wrong in this world. If we see things from different angle, we will realize that there are too much alternatives. What for so stubborn to stay with that single path? Like what people used to say "If plan A and B fail, we still have plan C". If  plan C fail, we still have D,E,F,G,.....,Z. There will always be a path that suits you. 

All these stuffs happen to me in family, relationships, friends etc. I was just too stubborn to hold onto one thing. I was too focused on myself and never thought of other people's feelings and it got me having troubles. Well, it will all ends today and I shall have a new start. Life is given from God for us to cherish ourselves so live happily.  If life really got stuck, we can press the refresh button anytime just like refreshing web pages. Nothing really that bad thinking from another angle. All it does just make me feel better and lesser burdens.

Another thing was hopes and promises really can hurt a person very deep. Yet, I am the person that really trust 100% for it but the more I trust, the more disappointed I get. So people don't hoped too high or give any empty promises. It hurt ones a lot. I got insecure after all because I hoped too high for certain stuffs and always want it to be in my way. In the end, I got myself hurt. 

My reflections sometimes makes me feel so guilty about myself and my life too. Why I never appreciate myself first before taking care of so much things? Making my life like hell and never got so happy for so long. Alright, now it's just like my burdens turn less. All these torturing stuffs will stop on 16/8/2013. The next day will be the real great start.

After one incident happened recently, I realized that I should let go of everything to enjoy my life. I should be more matured too! Now, I shall learn to forgive; accept and listen to people's opinion first; never get too stubborn; don't hope too high; don't give empty promises and learn to let go. 

Forget all the pain and restart a new life. Tomorrow is a new beginning.

"I hoped too high, fall too deep and got myself injured."

I learnt my lessons in life.
What about you?

Queen's Day

Yo! I am back blogging again. *giggles* I know the title sounds funneh but I did it purposely. *smirk face*
Hope you enjoy reading my blog. :) P.s. This will be a very long blog post as there's too much happenings on this day! It's takes me lots of time to choose and edit photos. MUST choose the nice one some more. JKJK! :P  

"6th of August was suppose to be an awesome day." It's my birthday and I am officially 20 this year. Sad. *sobs* As I wakes up on this day, I felt so empty but still excited. Why? It's because I am going out with my sister, Priscilla Chong! At first I really thought that it will be an "extreme plain" day but it did not. My mom prepared me two eggs as a birthday breakfast. Kinda cheer when I saw them. <3 Thanks, mama! She understands me very well and always cheer me up no matter what happens. *touches my heart*

Eggs that made by my mom that cheer my day up! :D

After breakfast, I am off to date with my sista at One Utama! :D 
As I was dressed up for the outing and prepared to leave, suddenly my sis messaged me to wear the blue skirt so that we are wearing couple outfit for the day. 
My sister purposely travel from Cyber to One Utama to celebrate this year 20th birthday. 
Feeling so touched. Thanks ,my sis Priscilla Chong. I was the first who reached One Utama as Priscilla was on the way to One Utama. She got me surprised as I was waiting for her while sitting on the bench nearby Auntie Anne. Out of the sudden she scare me from behind with a big cute bunny paper bag. After that, we went for lunch at Plan B. It's my second time to be here but it was her first time. Plan B serve yummy and cheesy food. I loved it there because I loved yummy food. <3 My sis said that the food there were yummeh! :) As usual we camwhore while waiting for le food to arrive! And of course I cannot show you those crazy pictures that we snap that day or else my sis will "scold" me. We even did insta video of le Queen's birthday and got the staff there laughing at us. You may have a look on my insta as well if you followed me at himmiko_lim. Well, it was just so fun! We don't need to care what people thinks about us. Just enjoy life. This is life. Not to forget about keng sum si. Of course this kinda things will happen around le girls but I am not sure about guys. Tell me if guys did! 

"So I am the Queen of the day so I allow you to be my slave of the day! Hahaha! :P"

Le "slave" playing her phone while waiting for le food to come! 

Lunch Time! Le hungry monster pose. <3

Nom nomm. Lunch with Egg Benedict.

Lunch of the day!  Egg benedict and turkey ham bread (Ooops! I totally forgotten about the name.)

Alright, lunch time is over and we gotta find something to do. 

*Walks walks* We jalan-jalan along the shops as we had not been shopping together like this!

At first we look for shoes but we didn't buy any. 

It's like a window shopping for us. :)

Later on we decided to snap outfit of the day and then we ended up in the fitting room of Forever 21. Kinda funny right. This is actually one of our memories which we used to stay in Forever 21 fitting room to do some "random stuffs". She always say that I am creative.  

We are just like couple in the dream. <3 Love the effect. 

I can act innocent very well.
Don't get cheated by me. hahah! :P

It's just like photoshooting here. <3
credits to Priscilla chong

Credits to Priscilla Chong

She acts cute.

I say not enough crazy "Let's shake our heads and snap one blur photo."

Le someone zi pai-ing. :P
I cover your face with the flower so don't shy yah! :P

Wow! The photographer got kinda talent! Capture the model until so pretty. *prouds*

Her outfit of the day

My outfit of the day.

Before we leave One Utama and go home, she asked me to post like this to show my "LC face".
"I am AWSOME than each and everyone of you because I have a sister like you."
It's you who made me to be myself and made my life much more happier.

P.s. We were in the toilet that time.

Well, time always do not allow me to spend longer with you. To be honest 3 hours is not enough for our dating but just enough for lectures.Well, it was a very awesome and great day. With you, I can be myself. The true self in me because I'm the girl who will feel comfortable with people who I am close with. Perhaps people might thought that we are Lesbo but you are the most wonderful sister I ever had. We are more than a best friend. More than a sister. Soul mate could really describe us because you are the person that truly understand who I am. It's some kinda bond that we have which people could not understand and separate us as a sister. I loved you so much. I hope that's not too late to say "Happy Friendship Day". I remember this day but I just can't find a suitable spot for posting it. Thanks for making so much surprises for me! I may not be a good sister as I always give you troubles. I can't go to Cyber alone to find you. I really wish I could! 

Hope to see you soon!

Back at home, I thought that I might not get any surprises. Well, dinner itself got me surprised and touched. Though my heart was so broken and worn out but what my mom and little brother did was just so touching. I cried when I saw the dinner. My mom cooked for the dinner as my little brother decorated the plate. I felt so happy as they made such surprise for me.  

Smiley which cheer people up!

Le presents of the day!
Thanks to my mom for the ang pau.
Thanks Nic for the necklace.
Thanks sister for the bag and card.

Alright, I thought my birthday just ended there but no. My aunts, uncle, and cousin sisters gang banged my house. Seriously, I felt so touched at that moment. Feeling so loved. Thanks God for sending them to cheer my life and days. There's too much thank you said. I bet you all will say I am so annoying with the "Thank you". Well, Merci then! Hehe~

Lastly, before I end this post, I would like to thank all my friends who wished me via Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, Line, Messaging, and so on. Thanks peeps for your care. Each and every care from you all cheered my day! <3 Thanks to my boyfriend too for the wish and care that you'd given to me. I am so happy to have you in my life. Though we can't be together on that day due to certain obstacles but I do hope some day we will meet.
Thank God for making my day so wonderful even it was destroyed by somebody. Thanks for giving me an endless birthday for this year my friends! <3

Thanks for reading, peeps! <3

Love,

Himmiko

Le Early Birthday Celebration

5th of August 2013 is the day before my birthday. I must write it down before I forget about it. It's the day when my college mates Nicholas, Wai Hong, See Teng and Zhao Bin purposely travel to Hartamas to celebrate my birthday in advance. Sorry for le inconvenience. No matter what you people still made my day fantastic. The day before and on the day itself I wasn't in a very good situation. Some negative stuffs stuck in my mind. Anyway thank you so much for giving me such a happy day. I felt so important yesterday that I never been feeling it for so long. Thank you Wai Hong and Cherub for willing to listen to what I had to say and give me some advice. Wai Hong sometimes you are just so kind and thank you so much for those lame jokes even though I wasn't in mood. I m sorry if I just said anything that I was not suppose to. And also purposely come to fetch me. I also need to thank my boss, Nic for planning this birthday lunch. And not to forget Zhao Bin too for attending le lunch.

Firstly, we went to Solaris (Soho KL) for a korean lunch at Uncle Jang. It's my first time trying Uncle Jang. :)
We had fun! :D It shows on the video below. :P  It was suppose to be on instavideo but the video corrupted. :'(

So now it's time for pictures snap. "Gachakkk"!

Le uncle low who always take care of me
 like a best friend of mine! :D
Thank you so much!

Cherub the girl who is very happy and merry.
Treats me like a best friend of hers and taking care of
me so much. :D

Nic Le boss who created this special day for me. Giving me
lots of care like a best friend. Thanks for everything!

Zhao Bin the funny guy that always make
me laugh with his jokes. BFF yah!

4 of us! :D

5 of us group photo. :)

After that, we all went for second round at WonderMilk, Publika.

Each of us bought one cupcake as our dessert. :)

The counter :D

I loved the atmosphere here.
This photo kinda vintage feel.

Our cupcakes. :)

Before consuming the cake, they sang le birthday song for me silently as the atmosphere was so quiet. 

It was a very awkward moment. Anyway, I enjoyed! :)

2nd group picha! 

We are all BFF! <3

Although Ann and Yumi can't attend but still thank you. Thank you for making it happen this day! Even thank to those who wished me.I will thank Him for having friends like you all. Millions of thank you that I really can't stop saying it. My life won't be perfect without you all. I am serious. You people lighted up my day even when I am in the suckest moment. I might not be the best or perfect friend that you all would want me to be but I will try my best. Thank you so much! 

Ciaoz! 

Sometimes I just do not know how to face it instead of telling out the truth.

Chuenli's Birthday!

Finally I can blog after having so much troubles with my new phone memory stuffs. I can't find my photos files in the SD card so it delayed my post. Cause I am new to use le phone! Yes, I bought my new phone. Well, I am not telling stories about my phone in this post because the main topic is my best friend's birthday! It's a celebration for the expressionless girl which is my Primary + High School BFF. It's been 10 years of our friendship. Thank god for letting me to have best friends like you both! :)

Alright, let's talk about what happen on that particular  day. Well, we helped her to celebrate her belated birthday as I had work on the day before. First of all, Xin Wei and I decided to gang bang her house and we pakat with Chuenli's mother. At first we went to De Pastry at Manjalara to buy a cake for her. Then, we sneaked into her house as she was busy with her assignments. She did not even realized that we entered her house. Later on we surprised her with a "watermelon cake". With such surprise she can't even have any single expression on her face so that is why we called her Le expressionless girl.

As my sister is a very boyish type of girl, I bought a present to prank her. Hehe! 

It is a very girlish pouch. :P

Da-da! Le present!

Then Xin Wei and I played with Kylie's violin to pretend as a violonist.

Le musician.

Future violinist. XD
Credits to my sista, Xin Wei.

Later on, we ask Chuenli (Le birthday girl) to draw each of us a portrait.

Le potrait of me drawn by Chuenli.

Le artist.

We had too much fun on that day! :P
I am so glad to have you two in my life!
Thanks god for arranging us to be sisters.

Survive in July

Bello! (Minion virus) Hehehe! To be very honest, I am suppose to be satisfy with everything in my life but human will never satisfy in their life. Just like a term that I learnt from Economics last time "human have unlimited needs". So like I said that July was the worst month in my life ever. YES, it is absolutely an awful month. Nothing goes well as July enters my life. This was true. There were too many rubbish coming all in one to make me to deal with it. Yet, I am so tired of it. JULY why you be no good to me?  My friend, Yumi realized that July always "treat" me badly as last year's July I cried hard and suffered. So, no history repeats for it. I gotta control over it! Never get life to control over me but I will be the one to control this life. Because this is my life! Well, my music school, Seimpi is having a recital tomorrow. Yes. I will be performing. It's an absolute classical concert. My teacher says that it is a very formal concert. I just got to know that classical type concerts are very strict as in "You MUST be absolute SILENT when the performer is playing the piano." Second rule is you must not get in or out of the hall when the performer is playing his pieces. I only get to know it now. LOL I am seriously not ready for the performance yet. My fingers are like not firm enough to play the pieces. Anyway, wish me best of luck! I hope to perform it well tomorrow! 

Alright, before I end this post, I would like to wish my sister, Wei Ern Happy Birthday! Love you. <3

My sister and I

I survived in July!

Write to release stress!

How am I doing recently? Don't ask. I never been having any beautiful, fantasy, enjoyable, carefree, stress-free, wonderful, amazing and etc life. People might say that I am facing my life in a negative way but I do not think so. It's people that make my life painful, tired, depressed, complicated, disturbing, irritating and so on. FML. I can't see any fucking thing that make my life better in future. I had been working so damn hard. Struggling. As if I am going to fall but I am still holding onto it but what do I get in the end? Nothing. I get nothing. My life never been easy. I had been struggling hard. Clinging onto that so-called happy thingy/ Who even cares? Nobody gives a damn to it. I am talking shits either. I never wanted to tell myself how the hell I hate this life. I just want to make it better but I can't help it. Nothing makes my life happier. Feeling wanted and so on. I am just everyone's burden. Hate me. I know cause I hate myself too. Don't feel sorry when you read it. I don't need anyone's sympathy! I know I suck. It's  just to release my stress. Sorry if I had disturbed your mind. Its just some rubbish. Ignore me.

Happy Father's Day!

First and foremost, I would like to thank my dad for taking all his responsibilities well by taking care of us (mom, brothers and me). He might be harsh towards my siblings and I but he was just protective. I know. I m not those kind of person that might say thank you easily sometimes but I know all the things that you did for me in my heart. I will thank you quietly in my heart. I do not like to boast over how much I love you or thanks you like what those people did on Facebook or whatever in certain times so that's me! 

To be very honest, there will be nothing very much special in those occasions like Father's Day or Mother's Day or any others for my family. We might just as well going out for dinner as a celebration for the occasions. Instead of eat , we could not have any better idea on going for trips because we are all busy! Well, my family had an early celebration dinner this year for Father's Day. I know that I should have post it earlier but I was busy reading over my novel "Never Enough" by Denise Jaden. This novel is just so damn amazing and I had been reading it a few days ago and it is coming to the end very soon. Well, let's forget about this topic and get back to the topic of "father's day celebration". We had our dinner at Amelios', Desa Parkcity  on the 13th of June (Thursday). I loved the breads there especially the blueberry one. It's so damn yummy! Overall the breads are the best and not to forget about the Osaka cupcakes. They are delicious too! 

Oh my blueberry bread! <3

The mushroom soup was yummy too! :P

My dad called this artistic. It was because they all took the food before
I could capture the photo of the complete pizza. -.-

This is a very random dish with bacon, fried chicken and fried fillet. 

Oh! I mentioned that I had a haircut on twitter but I did not post any.
And here's the new look of me myself in June. :)

My hair got shorter and lighter! <3

Lastly, before I forget. Happy Father's Day to all the Fathers on the Earth! :)
Have a nice day!
Just a simple update.
Hope you like it. <3

Those days

I loved the photos of Paris especially with the Eiffel Tower. Do you like Paris? Yes, I do. It's a very romantic place to go. P.s.Actually, I got this photo from one of the Facebook page. Today is the last day of semester 2 holiday and I am heading back to my University soon. It's tomorrow. A fresh new and boring semester 3 (short one). Never mind. I will use up all my time to do something better this time. I promise. I know time passes very fast. Just like the quote of "Time waits for no man." So we shall all appreciate our time and plan it wisely. Out of the sudden, I reflect on what I had been doing for the past 2 years after I had left my high school. I realized that I had been through too much painful and sad memories. I think those who followed my twitter for the past 2 years will know about it. When I recall back, I just realized that those matters are just a piece of nut. Family, financial stuffs, studies, relationships matters and etc. All these are just some kinda matters that had been accompanying me to go through these years. 2 years of pain and memorable memories are just part of the history in my life for now. Do you know that those painful memories had brought me to be more matured? Yes, it developed me to become a more matured person. I realized each and every problems come just for the reason behind it. I had been taking them as challenges in my life and just solving all these matters one by one. I realized that life is just too interesting instead of giving up those things that are precious to me. I promise that I will not give up no matter what happens. There goes the "me" for today! If you know what I  mean. :)
It's a very meaningful and interesting 2 years to be a better me. Great memories.
I know youngsters like me should not always look back but I just want to remind myself not to forget when I fall and how I get up again. I am satisfied with my life in this moment.

"Life is all about falling down and how you are going to get up again."

Love Me or Leave Me

Did you wonder how I get along with my holidays? As I mentioned in my previous post, I watched a  Taiwan drama titled "Love Me or Leave Me" or "我租了一个情人". Wow! I loved this drama a lot! In my opinion, it's the second drama that can compete with "Autumn Concerto" or known as "下一站幸福".  Oh my! I tell you one thing. I am seriously in love with the main character, Chris Wang. He is not very hot or handsome whatsoever but he is so damn cute! <3 I loved the way he acts in the drama.

"Love me or Leave me" 
It is about  Ji Qing(Tiffany Hsu) had trauma on marriage. Her boyfriend, Fang Hao Ming (Chris Wang) had been proposing to her for a lot of times but he failed all the times. For the last time he proposed, as usual Ji Qing rejected him again. Yes. It's again. However, Hao Ming did not give up. He then sets an ultimatum to have a trial marriage for a month or break up. On the last day, last minute before it ends, Ji Qing appears in front of Hao Ming's house. (It's a yes to the trial marriage!)
Later on, Ji Qing finds Zhao Shan Shan (Albee Huang) to help her to check out whether Hao Ming is a good guy or not. Something happen in between and both of them cannot be together for quite some time.

Tiffany Hsu and Chris Wang.

Left : Li Kang Yi as Liao Yi Ren

Middle: Alan Kuo as Ding Sheng Hua

Right: Albee Huang as Zhao Shan Shan

My favourite scene:

I love this scene. It is quite funny! They were both caught naked in the pool. XD

They both ended up overnight in the police station.

都给你by 宥勝 (Chris Wang) 

I loved this song! <3

The theme song "幸福就好" by Soo Wincci 

Overall it's a very nice drama! I loved the story line and of course the main character, Chris Wang! He's so cute even though he is not hot! I loved the way he act cute! Bwahahhaha! 4/5 rating for this drama.

Well, to be honest I found out that the female main character is kinda like my character, patterns and so on. And guess what? She's the same horoscope as me. Leo. :P 

However, I don't like the ending but it's kinda "real life ending". Hmmm... What's the ending? Find out yourself! Hehe :D