我够满足了

我知道我的华语不是很好。但是每次当我感到很满足或伤心的时候我都是喜欢打华语字。你可以笑我但是不能不告诉我。
今晚我跟爸爸在家。刚刚从外面吃饱 和放弟弟去补习中心。突然有一种很满足的感觉。刚才我和爸爸在车上。只有我们两个人。忽然觉得车好安静 好久没有和爸爸说很多很多的话。我心想到底是我长大了所以跟他的话题减少了或是什么？是不是每个人长大了心事只会告诉妈妈但不是爸爸？之前应为很多事情我们吵架。为了大学以后念什么course 为了我的感情又在吵为了其他的事情而压力。但是后来我才发觉其实很不值得。他都老了如果我还想这样的和他赌气以后后悔的只是我。
在看看 他都老了好多好多。忽然好想抱紧他告诉他“爸，辛苦你了” 忽然觉得感足。他之前为我做的一切都是应为担心我我。他真的是我一辈子的依靠。谢谢你花了这么多年的心思来照顾我和弟弟 还有妈咪。我知道你一个人去赚钱真的很辛苦。谢谢你，爸爸！虽然有时候我真的很生气的对你说话 但你都不会来哄我而要让我变得更加会想 变成现在那么成熟得我。
其实不只是爸爸还有妈咪。妈咪也是我们家里的女人。为我们准备一切 让我们依赖她。真的真的很感谢老天爷给了这么完整的家给我。妈咪你也很辛苦 有时候七早八早特体起来准备早餐给我们。你们真的累了这么多年了。有时候就帮我们完成我们不想要做的事情。连累也要准备一天三餐给我们。妈，你也真的很累很累。这辈子也没什么好好的享受生活。我答应你们等我真的赚到钱 我一定会带你们去路行。我的生活是最完美的应为有你们在我的生命里。弟弟们有时候也好让我觉得讨厌应为大的就很自以为是。另一个脾气臭得很。但是谁叫你们是我的弟弟。我也一样疼的。真的够满足了。不管我开心或不开心你们一直都在我的身边 从没有丢下我。<3

Complicated

Hey, it's been quite some time I didn't post anything here. Not even anywhere else. My life was kind of busy as it step into 2014. Perhaps it was my mind busy or maybe I am physically busy. I am not sure. I was thinking that I could have much better life by making myself to work hard but it takes quite some time to reach something I really hoped for quite some time. Somehow I felt that I am just endlessly chasing over something that never going to happen. Perhaps it was just a dream. I hope not.
I am having insomnia tonight. My words are just like a drunkards babbling over something that they don't understand. Just ignore me. I can't sleep. Thousands of rubbish running in my mind. I am psycho. Perhaps this is life. Night.

My new blog place pepo ;-)

http://dayre.me/himmiko/ldGjO4gZrO

November illness

In this moment of life I am feeling so damn depressed. Is it because I stayed too positive and negative stuffs will attack me? I seriously had no idea. It seems like life is such a depressing thing in this moment. I can't smile happily. I can't face things fearlessly. I am so scared. So worried but I am not sure who I should talk to. Talking the same old thing again and again to the person, he or she might feel annoyed. But I really need someone to accompany and talk to. Feeling so useless why can't I stay positive. Why am I feeling so scared. Trauma cause of bad stuffs coming to me continuously? Seriously. I met an accident when I was driving but it was just some minor one. It was then settled. And yet, I had been consulting doctors for four times in this month. Seriously scary. Each time different problem. First time my irregular growing of wisdom teeth. Secondly, my eye problem. Third, falling sick. Lastly, tooth canal infection. I went through so much. At first I faced these problems positively, but until the last fucking problem I can't stand anymore. Why the hell choosing me for these rubbish?!! And it just doesn't stop you know? I am very tired. Please stop all these. Feeling so damn worried on my tooth.. I am just so scared. I have no more idea on how to get it recover. I had finished the last dose of medicine but it still not yet fully recover. Although I had finished my presentation today but I am seriously not myself for today. I cant smile as happy I was. Telling people they say that I am over worried. Is this the character of perfectionist? Wants everything to be perfect? Well, I am tired of problems coming continuously. I had enough.. I need some break from the negatives please!
November just hate me without any reason.

Sorry, I was being emotional tonight. I just need to express my feelings. 

Coffee Stain by Joseph

Saying Hello to my dear readers! *waves*  

I am having busy moments as it is coming towards the year end which is my busiest time of the year. As you all know, I am always being busy during the year end. Why? Because I am busy for my studies and preparation for my recital as well. What about you all? I hope you are enjoying your life as usual. Me? I am actually enjoying my life much more these days. I learnt that I must appreciate things around. "Don't take things for granted."  

Instead of enjoying my life, I am currently busy with my assignments. I have 2 assignments to pass up next week. It seems like I should be crazy over these assignments right? Yup. I am struggling so I went out with two of my buddies, Wai Hong and Cherub yesterday for some discussion at Coffee Stain in Publika, Solaris Dutamas. We are more or less having fun while discussing our assignments. I seriously like the ambience there although it is not a perfect spot for assignments. 

Signature coffee which the cubes are coffee
and you will need to pour the
milk into the glass and it will turn into a coffee.
*Forget the name*
Costs around RM 15

My "Hot Chocolate"I loved it.
Costs around RM 10

3D art Chocolate
It is just a plain cup of hot chocolate with a 3D art on it.
To be honest it is too cute that I will not willing to drink it.
Costs around RM 15.

Le buddies! :)

Just a simple and short post. Hope you will like it. :)

Sorry for my readers who waited for my new post and request for a new post.

Thanks for reading! 

-Stay tuned-

New Beginning

It is time to let it go. I had grown up and I want to be more matured. Want to stop all the "emo" stuffs. Everything happened few years back and I just cannot let it go until today. Stressful, unhappy, rude, stubborn, naive, etc gotten into my life from that day itself (back to those days in high school).  These stuffs just stick to me for so long and I just realize it today. I used to blame people and my life for being so lousy and troublesome to me. I did had some self-reflection sometimes when something happened but just because of pride I really do not know how to face people with it. Well, I do lower down my pride to say a simple sorry to that person but I did it reluctantly. To me, saying sorry was just for making that person to not angry at me. No, it proves me wrong. Saying sorry doesn't mean that you are losing any pride. Saying sorry is just to make you to get things over and refresh your life. Forget about the hate and start to forgive. This will lead you to have a better life. No point of hating people as life is just too short to hate people. Last time, I used to domineer people to agree with my thoughts as I felt that it was right. To be honest, there is nothing right or wrong in this world. If we see things from different angle, we will realize that there are too much alternatives. What for so stubborn to stay with that single path? Like what people used to say "If plan A and B fail, we still have plan C". If  plan C fail, we still have D,E,F,G,.....,Z. There will always be a path that suits you. 

All these stuffs happen to me in family, relationships, friends etc. I was just too stubborn to hold onto one thing. I was too focused on myself and never thought of other people's feelings and it got me having troubles. Well, it will all ends today and I shall have a new start. Life is given from God for us to cherish ourselves so live happily.  If life really got stuck, we can press the refresh button anytime just like refreshing web pages. Nothing really that bad thinking from another angle. All it does just make me feel better and lesser burdens.

Another thing was hopes and promises really can hurt a person very deep. Yet, I am the person that really trust 100% for it but the more I trust, the more disappointed I get. So people don't hoped too high or give any empty promises. It hurt ones a lot. I got insecure after all because I hoped too high for certain stuffs and always want it to be in my way. In the end, I got myself hurt. 

My reflections sometimes makes me feel so guilty about myself and my life too. Why I never appreciate myself first before taking care of so much things? Making my life like hell and never got so happy for so long. Alright, now it's just like my burdens turn less. All these torturing stuffs will stop on 16/8/2013. The next day will be the real great start.

After one incident happened recently, I realized that I should let go of everything to enjoy my life. I should be more matured too! Now, I shall learn to forgive; accept and listen to people's opinion first; never get too stubborn; don't hope too high; don't give empty promises and learn to let go. 

Forget all the pain and restart a new life. Tomorrow is a new beginning.

"I hoped too high, fall too deep and got myself injured."

I learnt my lessons in life.
What about you?

Queen's Day

Yo! I am back blogging again. *giggles* I know the title sounds funneh but I did it purposely. *smirk face*
Hope you enjoy reading my blog. :) P.s. This will be a very long blog post as there's too much happenings on this day! It's takes me lots of time to choose and edit photos. MUST choose the nice one some more. JKJK! :P  

"6th of August was suppose to be an awesome day." It's my birthday and I am officially 20 this year. Sad. *sobs* As I wakes up on this day, I felt so empty but still excited. Why? It's because I am going out with my sister, Priscilla Chong! At first I really thought that it will be an "extreme plain" day but it did not. My mom prepared me two eggs as a birthday breakfast. Kinda cheer when I saw them. <3 Thanks, mama! She understands me very well and always cheer me up no matter what happens. *touches my heart*

Eggs that made by my mom that cheer my day up! :D

After breakfast, I am off to date with my sista at One Utama! :D 
As I was dressed up for the outing and prepared to leave, suddenly my sis messaged me to wear the blue skirt so that we are wearing couple outfit for the day. 
My sister purposely travel from Cyber to One Utama to celebrate this year 20th birthday. 
Feeling so touched. Thanks ,my sis Priscilla Chong. I was the first who reached One Utama as Priscilla was on the way to One Utama. She got me surprised as I was waiting for her while sitting on the bench nearby Auntie Anne. Out of the sudden she scare me from behind with a big cute bunny paper bag. After that, we went for lunch at Plan B. It's my second time to be here but it was her first time. Plan B serve yummy and cheesy food. I loved it there because I loved yummy food. <3 My sis said that the food there were yummeh! :) As usual we camwhore while waiting for le food to arrive! And of course I cannot show you those crazy pictures that we snap that day or else my sis will "scold" me. We even did insta video of le Queen's birthday and got the staff there laughing at us. You may have a look on my insta as well if you followed me at himmiko_lim. Well, it was just so fun! We don't need to care what people thinks about us. Just enjoy life. This is life. Not to forget about keng sum si. Of course this kinda things will happen around le girls but I am not sure about guys. Tell me if guys did! 

"So I am the Queen of the day so I allow you to be my slave of the day! Hahaha! :P"

Le "slave" playing her phone while waiting for le food to come! 

Lunch Time! Le hungry monster pose. <3

Nom nomm. Lunch with Egg Benedict.

Lunch of the day!  Egg benedict and turkey ham bread (Ooops! I totally forgotten about the name.)

Alright, lunch time is over and we gotta find something to do. 

*Walks walks* We jalan-jalan along the shops as we had not been shopping together like this!

At first we look for shoes but we didn't buy any. 

It's like a window shopping for us. :)

Later on we decided to snap outfit of the day and then we ended up in the fitting room of Forever 21. Kinda funny right. This is actually one of our memories which we used to stay in Forever 21 fitting room to do some "random stuffs". She always say that I am creative.  

We are just like couple in the dream. <3 Love the effect. 

I can act innocent very well.
Don't get cheated by me. hahah! :P

It's just like photoshooting here. <3
credits to Priscilla chong

Credits to Priscilla Chong

She acts cute.

I say not enough crazy "Let's shake our heads and snap one blur photo."

Le someone zi pai-ing. :P
I cover your face with the flower so don't shy yah! :P

Wow! The photographer got kinda talent! Capture the model until so pretty. *prouds*

Her outfit of the day

My outfit of the day.

Before we leave One Utama and go home, she asked me to post like this to show my "LC face".
"I am AWSOME than each and everyone of you because I have a sister like you."
It's you who made me to be myself and made my life much more happier.

P.s. We were in the toilet that time.

Well, time always do not allow me to spend longer with you. To be honest 3 hours is not enough for our dating but just enough for lectures.Well, it was a very awesome and great day. With you, I can be myself. The true self in me because I'm the girl who will feel comfortable with people who I am close with. Perhaps people might thought that we are Lesbo but you are the most wonderful sister I ever had. We are more than a best friend. More than a sister. Soul mate could really describe us because you are the person that truly understand who I am. It's some kinda bond that we have which people could not understand and separate us as a sister. I loved you so much. I hope that's not too late to say "Happy Friendship Day". I remember this day but I just can't find a suitable spot for posting it. Thanks for making so much surprises for me! I may not be a good sister as I always give you troubles. I can't go to Cyber alone to find you. I really wish I could! 

Hope to see you soon!

Back at home, I thought that I might not get any surprises. Well, dinner itself got me surprised and touched. Though my heart was so broken and worn out but what my mom and little brother did was just so touching. I cried when I saw the dinner. My mom cooked for the dinner as my little brother decorated the plate. I felt so happy as they made such surprise for me.  

Smiley which cheer people up!

Le presents of the day!
Thanks to my mom for the ang pau.
Thanks Nic for the necklace.
Thanks sister for the bag and card.

Alright, I thought my birthday just ended there but no. My aunts, uncle, and cousin sisters gang banged my house. Seriously, I felt so touched at that moment. Feeling so loved. Thanks God for sending them to cheer my life and days. There's too much thank you said. I bet you all will say I am so annoying with the "Thank you". Well, Merci then! Hehe~

Lastly, before I end this post, I would like to thank all my friends who wished me via Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, Line, Messaging, and so on. Thanks peeps for your care. Each and every care from you all cheered my day! <3 Thanks to my boyfriend too for the wish and care that you'd given to me. I am so happy to have you in my life. Though we can't be together on that day due to certain obstacles but I do hope some day we will meet.
Thank God for making my day so wonderful even it was destroyed by somebody. Thanks for giving me an endless birthday for this year my friends! <3

Thanks for reading, peeps! <3

Love,

Himmiko