In this moment of life I am feeling so damn depressed. Is it because I stayed too positive and negative stuffs will attack me? I seriously had no idea. It seems like life is such a depressing thing in this moment. I can't smile happily. I can't face things fearlessly. I am so scared. So worried but I am not sure who I should talk to. Talking the same old thing again and again to the person, he or she might feel annoyed. But I really need someone to accompany and talk to. Feeling so useless why can't I stay positive. Why am I feeling so scared. Trauma cause of bad stuffs coming to me continuously? Seriously. I met an accident when I was driving but it was just some minor one. It was then settled. And yet, I had been consulting doctors for four times in this month. Seriously scary. Each time different problem. First time my irregular growing of wisdom teeth. Secondly, my eye problem. Third, falling sick. Lastly, tooth canal infection. I went through so much. At first I faced these problems positively, but until the last fucking problem I can't stand anymore. Why the hell choosing me for these rubbish?!! And it just doesn't stop you know? I am very tired. Please stop all these. Feeling so damn worried on my tooth.. I am just so scared. I have no more idea on how to get it recover. I had finished the last dose of medicine but it still not yet fully recover. Although I had finished my presentation today but I am seriously not myself for today. I cant smile as happy I was. Telling people they say that I am over worried. Is this the character of perfectionist? Wants everything to be perfect? Well, I am tired of problems coming continuously. I had enough.. I need some break from the negatives please!
November just hate me without any reason.
Sorry, I was being emotional tonight. I just need to express my feelings.
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