Not my Day neither My month too.

"You sucking July! Faster Get out of my sight! I hate you, July! I do not even want to stay in this month for long! You never brought a great day for me at all. None."

Another bad day. July in 2012 is absolutely not my month. Things does not come well to me.

Early in the morning facing so much problems. When I decided to get my car for college, that idiotic neighbour parked his rubbish car very close to mine. He is well known crazy but I never thought of this idiot could park his car so close till I cannot even open the door. "What is the Fcking hell happen to you?" Well, never mind.. When I reached my college, I went to canteen. I sit with my friends. Turning on my laptop, it jammed there like a piece of junk shit. I never been so bad luck in the morning. Yet, I have unsettled stuffs within me. Making me so frustrated. One more, I mistaken that my Economics class is cancel today but originally it is next Monday. I left all my Economics stuffs at home.I have to re-do all my work. What is the problem with me? Absolutely disappointed. I end up doing all my work with my college mate Jen and Yumi. 

Give me a sucker punch. I feels like face palm myself too.

The day before I was crying like a bitch. I really does not know where I am suppose to belong. Crazy over stuffs. Stressed-up. Being positive. I have tried everything.

It does not give me a good ending. What I am suppose to do anymore? I am so tired. Feels like giving up upon those stuffs. Just-let-it-be. Let it be what it wanna be. Does not want to care what is happening next  anymore. I does not knows what I am crapping over. Ignore me if you really could. 

Well, I would like to thanks to my college mate too. Jen, Yumi and nicholas for making my time more usable. 

Thanks for spending so much time for accompany me. You guys are GREAT!

You make me feel that I am not suppose to face it alone. Thanks for the hug too, Jen. <3

Having friends around are not as bad as I thought when I am feeling bad. 

Thanks for colouring my day. :)

At the same time, sorry for what I had did today making anyone of my friend upset. I am really feeling so bad today. Sorry.

Me with my new beanie. I know I looks moody.
That is what I am for today temporarily.

I cried over the times,

I am so afraid of making you feel uncomfortable.

I am so sad over what you express yourself as,

I am feeling so lost and upset when I sees that word.

I really <3 you. I really do.

I want a forever even I know it does not exist.

P.s.  To be honest I hate this July because it does not even give me a great peace day before from the day one.

I have always been thinking: "July, get away please!"

I wanted today to be 16/7/2012. 

I want this painful July to get rid of my sight.