Write to release stress!

How am I doing recently? Don't ask. I never been having any beautiful, fantasy, enjoyable, carefree, stress-free, wonderful, amazing and etc life. People might say that I am facing my life in a negative way but I do not think so. It's people that make my life painful, tired, depressed, complicated, disturbing, irritating and so on. FML. I can't see any fucking thing that make my life better in future. I had been working so damn hard. Struggling. As if I am going to fall but I am still holding onto it but what do I get in the end? Nothing. I get nothing. My life never been easy. I had been struggling hard. Clinging onto that so-called happy thingy/ Who even cares? Nobody gives a damn to it. I am talking shits either. I never wanted to tell myself how the hell I hate this life. I just want to make it better but I can't help it. Nothing makes my life happier. Feeling wanted and so on. I am just everyone's burden. Hate me. I know cause I hate myself too. Don't feel sorry when you read it. I don't need anyone's sympathy! I know I suck. It's  just to release my stress. Sorry if I had disturbed your mind. Its just some rubbish. Ignore me.