2012 isn't a good year for me and anyone either as I felt about it. A lot of people around me break up, pass away, and arguments. Too much unfortunate things which had happened to be very bad around me and everyone. People even says that 2012 is the end of the world. To be honest first half of my 2012 was worst like shit. I almost cry everyday for certain problems and so on. Pain. Hurtful. I really can't describe my feelings in words. Too much troublesome problems. I had been struggling too much with studies, LDR, life and etc. Well, it had just over. So that's the end. But there are a lot of things happened in 2012. No matter what happened in 2012 but it had taught me a lot of things. 'To appreciate the ones that are close to you. :-)
1) CNY new look. Turning to be more "ai mei". XD
2) First time driving to school from home. :P
3) Having practical exam grade 5
4) Being childish. XD
5) Going for flower festival
6) Explore Cyberjaya at night.
7) Birthday celebration with family and relative. First time having Secret Recipe chocolate cake. :P
8) Receiving a heart warming card from my sister!
9) First time birthday belated celebration with college mate
10) First time going to dreamz bakery and had so much fun with college mates.
11) My cousin sister leaving Malaysia to Scotland. :'(
12) Having a trip to Penang
13) Having a trip to Genting Theme park.
14) Gathering with sisters.
15) Second time having steamboat with sisters and Mr Pang.
16) Playing piano for the little concert of Seimpi.
17) Trip to Sekinchan
18) Attending sister's concert. <3
19) My piano teacher not teaching me anymore. :(
I am following a totally different teacher.
20) Met him in September 2012.
21) Studies : Grade turns to be very well.
22) Multiple arguments.
23) Showers the year with pain and tears.
Finally....
It's 2013.
No more the age starts with 1x but I am turning to be 20 so...
I promised myself to not shower this year with pain and tears anymore.
Hopefully, I could.
To do list in 2013:
1) To forgive and forget.
2) Create each and everyday with happiness.
3) Learn things that I do not know.
4) Work hard to achieve my goals.
5) Don't make myself feel depressed ANYMORE.
6) Make little changes in 2013.
7) Enjoy the whole year.
8) Going to score a distinction for my Grade 6 theory.
9) I will never cry like a crazy girl anymore. *Actually I already did*
10) Learn to be more independent.
11) Learn to be more brave and have more courage to face problems.
12)Achieve everything above.
13) I want some changes in our situation.
I will try to achieve them. I might not succeed but I will try my best. I still hope for one little thing. Please don't repeat the same thing to me again. Please. I don't want to repeat last year's and last last year's incident.
"Remember how long you had been walking these path alone, Himmiko. No matter what happen stay strong and don't give up. God will give you the best in life."